a quick update

assalamualaikum.
currently im on hols,taking 2 weeks off (with half month salary of course) and extension of 2 weeks to complete the 4 months compulsory paeds posting.. staying at home,spending quality time and to take care my sick baby.. zulaikha was admitted for 7 days people,treated for pertussis,how sad i was dat time,plus she has been admitted under HDU room 1,my ward.. dat entire week really opened my mind,my heart.. wenever i Off duty,i went home(room 1) had shower and take care of my lil baby..den my sweet luvy husben will continue working and we alternate taking care our lil baby..
I am gratefull in many ways.. i Am grateful i am a doctor,my hubby as well,at least we can do is we tried our best to be a perfect parents for zulaikha,the rest only tawakkal to Allah.. i am gratefull being surrounded by wonderful  collaegues,parents,in laws and all friends who r so kind and help us a lot.. well, joe n i decided not to send zulaikha to nursery anymore.. maybe she s too small to handle all the contagious thing dat u noe easily affect childrens in day care.. by the way,the nursery dat we sent zulaikha before was the best in term of everythin i would say. they hv enuff baby sitter,excellet system,encouraging breast milk ,clean..etc,it just well u noe when so many kids share the same room,one little boy cough,the other will get the same virus.. n so did our lil princess here..  honestly,deep down i feel so down,stressed with the workload and shift system of being a houseman,but i ve to be strong.. zulaikha and mr hubby are both my strenght.so my in laws finally found this one lady,about 30+,married,didnt hv children yet,and willing to take care our lil baby..  but shes only available in early july.. so till den,i take leaves to take care zulaikha..hoping dat she will be fine tken care by baby sitter..

some people hv asked me,how can i handle this, dey mean everthing dat happen ,u noe got married,pregnant and hv a baby while being a houseman..and especially i managed to pass my medical posting when i was pregnant..(yeah some people did mentioned how tough n stressed medical posting would be compared to other posting).. so honestly, i myself always always berserah kepada Allah, He knows wats the best for me,and my family. i remember my first few days of tagging as medical first poster,i cried sooo bad everytime i reached home,my hubby always hug me so tight,whisper silently telling me to be strong,Allah always luvs u..i cried so hard till i feel i wanna quit,its not about the workload.. i can handle the stress of working..its just when i think bout my lil baby inside me,i kept running here and der..did cpr non stop,not having fud properly,i feel so scared.. but then,i realized,im a strong women.. i started to learn n work like i enjoy every single moment in ward coz i noe my baby is always with me.. always with me..

then,now when she is sick,i didnt think twice,i know i have to do this.. i dont mind being extended 2 weeks for my paeds posting.. i dont mind finishing my housemanship a lit later then my friends,coz i already have everything dat i want in my sweet life.. a perfect husband,my lil zulaikha,a job,a house,a car. what more can i asked for.. Allah has granted everything dat i wished,dat i prayed everday before..  so friends, all people outhere,be grateful for what we have.. always ask help,cry as much as u want to Allah,coz He always listen..